1.A.D.D.
Lyricist：Steve Carnan, Dennis Steven Jagard, Peter Douglas Newbury,
Tony Palermo
Mommy, what does hyper mean？
The teacher says I'll never read
Says I need to take a pill
So I can learn to sit real still
The microwaves did something to our brains
We need to take these pills to help us change
Please let me take them
I don't want to be an idiot
Ritalin will make me smart
At least that's what my teacher says
All the other kids take them
I think I am the only one
I need something to slow me down
I talk too much 'cause I am dumb
Mommy what's a deficit？
I think it means that I can't sit
Disorder of attention and I don't learn the lesson
Mommy, please help me see the light
Don't you know my teacher's always right？
Please let me take them
I don't want to be an idiot
Ritalin will make me smart
At least that's what my teacher says
All the other kids take them
I think I am the only one
I need something to slow me down
I talk too much 'cause I am dumb
Joey started on week four, he's not in trouble anymore
Suzy in it on week nine, now she's never out of line
Now she's never ever out of
Please let me take them
I don't want to be an idiot
Mommy takes my Ritalin
There's not enough for me she said
All the other moms take them
I think it's not just mine
I don't know if she's smarter now
But at least she's doin' fine
2.John
Lyricist：Carnan Steven Thomas, Jagard Dennis Steven, Newbury Peter,
Palermo Anthony Joseph
John takes a seat so he can wind his watch
Not working anymore but it's so good to touch
It's the only solid evidence of what he's done and seen
It helps him to remember his past life was not a dream
It used to tell the time when he was young
But time means nothing now he has a clear view of the sun
John stopped me on the street today, he didn't have that much to
say
I said I had to get to work but he begged me to stay
There was a look in his eyes I'd never seen before
I couldn't walk away, I knew I wouldn't see him anymore
He bummed a smoke, looked off into space awhile
Then he looked into my eyes and unleashed a fleeting smile
Dennis, it's so good to see you, you have no idea
Just how bad it's getting on the street
I try to hide away but they find me every day
And I'm so fucking tired of the heat
Yeah, I'm so fucking tired of the heat
Yesterday I heard the news, they sent me a letter
Said it was suicide
But yesterday I heard the news, they sent me a letter
Said it was suicide but I know better
Said it was suicide but I know better
3.Too Late
Lyricist：Steven Thomas Carnan, Dennis Steven Jagard, Peter Douglas
Newbury, Tony Palermo
When she first apologized
It seemed that no one cared
No one cared about her shame
No one cared about her pain
And she could not accept
That no one gave her time
She said, 'They will watch me
Yes, by God I'll make them see'
My God, I can't believe you're gone
It's too late to say, 'Hang on'
Sometimes you just have to wait
This time it's just too late
She keeps apologizing every single night
Every night she wrings her hands
Every night that's where she stands
And I cannot accept
I could have changed her fate
If I only would have known
If I only would have known
My God, I can't believe you're gone
It's too late to say, 'Hang on'
Sometimes you have to wait
This time it's just too late
I can't believe you're gone
I can't believe you're gone
My friends keep telling me
That it will be all right
But they don't know the cost
No, they don't know what I've lost
They keep on talking
But to me there's nothing left
There is nothing you can say
There is nothing you can say
4.Denial
Its funny how a little truth can put things in perspective,
Sually i try to hide from all of lifes unpleasantries,
Like corruption lies and users,
Try to ignore all the abusers
But sometimes truth just slaps me in the face,
And i can't hide, try to deny deception
But now i see the other side,
I can't hide, try to regain my innocence
But something changed inside,
Funny how perceptions change when you know secret history,
Suddenly you see right past the thin veil of diplomacy,
Like the smiles that invite glare at you like they're filled
with spite,
The warm handshakes just seem so out of place,
And i can't hide,
Every person has a darkside please don't show me yours,
I don't really think i wanna know that you can't be trusted,
They say the truth will set you free
But they don't say how deep the cut will be,
Trust dies and paranoia takes it's place,
And i can't hide.
5.Damage
Lyricist：Charles Love
She was working all her life
For justice in this world
But every time she made some gains
Someone would kick her down again
Then damage takes its toll
The rising, the falling, the rising, the falling
Can you get back up again？
Then damage takes its toll
The rising, the falling, the rising, the falling
Can you get back up again？
It's easier to tear apart than build
Damage has momentum of its own
It takes less time to break things down
Than to wait around until they're grown
It's easier to tear apart than build
Damage has momentum of its own
It takes less time to break things down
Than to wait around until they're grown
She was looking all her life
For a mate that understood
But every time she gave her heart
She ended up scarred and alone
Then damage takes its toll
The rising, the falling, the rising, the falling
Can you get back up again？
Then damage takes its toll
The rising, the falling, the rising, the falling
Can you get back up again？
It's easier to tear apart than build
Damage has momentum of its own
It takes less time to break things down
Than to wait around until they're grown
It's easier to tear apart than build
Damage has momentum of its own
It takes less time to break things down
Than to wait around until they're grown
6.Daddy
Lyricist：L. Russell Brown, Tommy Page
Sorry, I just had to call
Don't want to wear you out on me
But I need someone to listen
You don't even have to speak
Sorry to make such a fuss
I know these things will happen
Now and then if you bear with me
I promise this will never happen again
Not again, never again
Daddy won't hurt me
This time it was all my fault
I'll be a good girl
And he won't have to get so mad
He won't have to get so
He does so much for me
I know he loves me deep inside
From now on I'll be so good
I will never hurt his pride
I guess I got what I deserved
And it does no good to cry
From now on I'll be good
This time I will really try
Daddy won't hurt me
This time it was all my fault
I'll be a good girl
And he won't have to get so mad
He won't have to get so
Thank you, I'm so happy now
How was your day？
I'd really like to see you soon
When will you be out this way？
I'm so glad that you were home
Gave me a chance to think it through
Let's not mention this again
The only one I ever told was you
Only you, only you
Daddy won't hurt me
This time it was all my fault
I'll be a good girl
He won't have to get so mad
He won't have to get so
7.What You Want
Lyricist：Steven Thomas Carnan, Dennis Steven Jagard, Peter Douglas
Newbury, Tony Palermo
Is there something you should tell me？
Is there something I should know？
I guess I thought that you were happy
But your eyes tell me
Was the attention all that you needed？
Did we miss your silent cries？ Is it too late to try？
Who do you want to see？ Who did you want to be？
Is it too late？
Can you tell me what you want？ Can you tell me what you need？
I can't read your mind but would I understand if I could？
I can't tell you what you want, I can't tell you what you need
I can't read your mind but would I understand if I could？
And I see something in your eyes exactly what I can't tell
And I'm still listening exactly why I don't know
Can you feel it？ can you find it？
Well, I can't take it and I can't fake it anymore
Can you tell me what you want？ Can you tell me what you need？
I can't read your mind but would I understand if I could？
I can't tell you what you want, I can't tell you what you need
I can't read your mind but would I understand if I could？
8.Excuses
Lyricist：Steven Thomas Carnan, Dennis Steven Jagard, Peter Douglas
Newbury, Tony Palermo
It was the alcohol you said
Took away your common sense
You don't remember a thing
Unconsciousness is your defense
It's everybody's fault but yours
And now we must forgive
How can we hold a grudge
When you can't remember what you did？
But it's not so easy to forgive
No matter what you say
It's not so easy to forget
It won't just go away
It will never be the same
We will never be the same
You'll never drink that much again
Those intentions sound just great
And while I'm glad to see you've learned
I think it's just a little, a little too late
It's everybody's fault but yours
And now we must forgive
How can we hold a grudge
When you can't remember what you did？
But it's not so easy to forgive
No matter what you say
It's not so easy to forget
It won't just go away
Things will never be the same
It will never be the same
We will never be the same
We will never be the same
9.Regret
Lyricist：Steven Thomas Carnan, Dennis Steven Jagard, Peter Douglas
Newbury, Tony Palermo
It's no use trying to make sense
It doesn't mater anyway
There's no one worth the pain
No reason left to stay
I try to turn it off
Where did the old me go？
How did I get so far away？
I just don't know
Every act of kindness
Boils down to lust or greed
No one acts from altruism
It all comes down to need
There's a monster inside my heart
He tries to tear my world apart
There's a demon inside my head
Tells me I'd be better off dead
I try to turn it off
Get back to positive
Don't want to drag you down
To the street where I live
I try to turn it off
Get back to happy days
Pull this barrel from my mouth
And look for better ways
Every act of kindness
Boils down to lust or greed
No one acts from altruism
It all comes down to need
There's a monster inside my heart
He tries to tear my world apart
There's a demon inside my head
Tells me I'd be better off dead
Everything you never tried
Every time you might have lied
Every flaw you tried to hide
Every drop you ever cried
Every time you've been denied
Every tear that ever dried
Everything builds up inside
In waves of regret miles wide
10.Fiction
Lyricist：Carnan Steven Thomas, Jagard Dennis Steven, Newbury Peter,
Palermo Anthony Joseph
Life's so unfair, you thought
Then turned on your TV
Life's so unfair you sobbed
Then picked up the keys
You lock your castle door behind you
To go for a ride
Your shiny car roars as you think
Of what you've been denied
No one understands your mind
No one ever tried
No one has a clue
Of what you are inside
And I lie
But I believe myself
And the truth hurts
More than anything else
Drowning in self pity, killing time
It helps me to write the words
To think about the grime
And if you piss me off
Please don't apologize
My anger drives conviction
As I proclaim these silly lies
If you don't believe me
Just read between the lines
No one has a clue
Of what's behind these eyes
And I lie
11.It's Not Me
Lyricist：Carnan Steven Thomas, Jagard Dennis Steven, Newbury Peter,
Palermo Anthony Joseph
You took my closest friends
Split my family
I gave up everything I had
Except your memory but I know
Someone will hold your hand tonight
You won't remember me tonight
I wish I could forget so easily
Someone will hold your hand tonight
Someone will sleep right by your side
All I know is it's not me
I miss your piercing glare
I miss your fearless touch
All the little things
I never thought would mean so much
And after all this time
I thought we would forgive
I guess there is no turning back
You have your life to live
I'm here all by myself
Remembering that you once said that
You would always be there, wait and see
Someone will hold your hand tonight
You won't remember me tonight
I wish I could forget so easily
Someone could hold your hand tonight
Someone could sleep right by your side
All I know is it's not, I know that it's not
Know that it's not me
12.Pride ＆ Shame
Is there something more I just can't see？
I've been so busy trying every day to make ends meet
Been such a long time
Since I stopped to smell the coffee
Now I wonder can I tell the forest from the trees？
I know that I feel pride and I know that I fear shame
I know I want you to smile when you hear my name
Seems like a silly game
But I know I play it harder than anything
I feel alone
There's people everywhere
Some of these people even care
Once in a while you find someone who really cares
But I'm too busy to give them what they need
It's not greed it's the fear of failure
It keeps me going
But when tomorrow comes there's always something more
And I can't stop working long enough
To wonder what life's for
What is it for？
Am I just a whore？
Who am I working for？
13.Hey Pete
'hey pete' she said 'it's not too late i still think that you're
just great you need to wait in the right place where you'll meet
a girl with good taste' 'aw, ma don't you think i tried？ i think
there's something wrong inside i have no problem making friends
but that's where the story ends' i have no problem hanging out
then i see a glimpse of doubt and i don't understand what makes
them not like me？ i'm just trying to be myself but it's so far
from everyone else and i don't understand what makes them not
like me
'hey pete i see from what you said that the problem's all in
your head and if you want to make a change you must let go of
being strange.' 'yeah mom the problem's in my brain sometimes i
really think i'm insane it goes much deeper than the beard deep
down inside me i'm just weird i have no problem hanging out...
maybe i'm just weird 'you're not weird pete you're just fine and
i'm proud to say you're mine regardless of the strange things
you've done i'm so glad that you're my son i really think from
what you said that the problem's all in your head and if you
want to make a change you must let go of being strange'
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